mossadance

was just tidying up my shelf after eoys. i cannot ignore the mess. i just ransack my notes for last minute revision during the exam period. quite pathetic, i know.

i flipped open a couple of literature books. there just isn't that..feeling anymore. is that the end of literature for me? i don't see wad's new. wad's old. i don't know why..but..basically, i remember what sandra said to me in the bus, vaguely, about her thoughts on lit and so on. then, i remembered my conversation with michelle. i told her my interest in lit seems to have crippled over this past year. we do bks on that same theme, genre..it gets quite wearisome after a while. when u mention indiv vs. society, social role...er...discrimination...i just feel like pushing all that away, and saying, I've had enough. i've never felt secure doing lit basically, in the marks and grade sense, because there are indeed, many restrictions. or say, many guidelines. they're good but, i don't know. maybe, i need a break. a less structured break from literature.

i used to have new things to say..but seems that i've had to learn prescribed outlooks towards such themes..perhaps i am the RIGID one, the epitome of how literature should not turn out...of a failed student..or..a student who's failed literature..? ho. i dn't know.

still. i flipped open The Handmaid's Tale and there's a quote I really like in the epigraph. it's a Sufi Proverb. its succint.

'In the desert there is no sign that says, Thou shalt not eat stones.'

many meanings. i like the one ms lim dictated. but i can't find my whole stack of notes. evidence of the exam whirlwind that's passed.

chew on it. im really going to bed this time.[but i can't fall asleep!] im in total work-mode. why now?

kmli blogged at 9/05/2005 02:55:00 PM

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