mossadance

why is the sister not back. and why am i missing her.
netball carn's over. 407 experienced a rebirth, that was long overdue =]
i shall give a more emotional entry proclaiming my love for the sevens soon.
by default - soon currently means "after hmt ao's exams" - comprehensive?

well...tomorrow, the keralites are coming. I want to go join them, and thus, Ms Ko, you have to let me skip a little bit of farewell assembly rehearsal. I will still come down for my speech! i just think receiving awards and hugging form teachers is quite managable! don't make me rehearse? can? heh. oh. and i just landed a journalism-like task. i'm writing the farewell assem. article for school mag. joy? nah, not venturing into journalism in the future, i think, though steph sees oh-so-much potential init.

i havn't started studying for chinese. because i havn't finished lit reviews for ss. oh. bible quiz was on sunday. hm...was very proud of our class. like, last minute also can get second for both categories, we are just pro. open round was so easy. all bible reference. frankly, for all those 'memory' questions, just bluffed my way through. well, at least i was..ahem...brave enough to just anyhow answer right? because, logic goes that being conservative doesnt help anyone/yourself. main purpose is to answer in such a way that i)you don't get marks deducted 2)just stand up so you claim that question.doesn't matter full marks anot. you answer get 1/4 mark, other classes also cannot answer mah right?

then the grp category ah, i wrote extra for fruits of the spirit. so marks were deducted. didn't state in the rules...-.- then samuel for once said he found the answer like super fast. turned out to be wrong. so we got lowest in that category.

i think our class is so cool, i mean, we didnt 'lose it' to go all the way out to winwinwin. we just played cool, acted retardedly and mumbled crap to pull through. it's the 'style' la. so sleek. was telling wengwoh that i don't really mind the guys now, since time has proven that they are actually quite nice and quite bearable. confessed i really used to detest them. sec one that time so act cool! almost every lesson i felt annoyed but i thought it was such an irony to dislike my ss classmates la. so, i worked a bit on it, and somehow, the boys also grew to be nicer la. and ww, it might be touching, but it is not in any way a means to swell up your ego la. your acting is quite funny, i mean people laugh but, cos you look so uniquely spastic. what to do?

hm. subject combis are driving me crazy. above anything else, I am very afraid of not doing well. i mean, i want straight As. what if i let loose halfway. i need motivation.

regarding guizhou and china, i'm not going anymore. my parents' attitude have taken on a strange turn and everything's been weird. I've been feeling weird, but feeling so strongly for the trip as well. But! really, after talking to steph, [hah, i was asked for an interview.] i really won't care anymore. I'll just leave it to be, because I can't hide that other feeling anymore; that God has a better plan somehow. sometime. It's been so much easier since that moment of acceptance. though there's still that tiny bit of remaining ache.

407's come very far, Y4 has come so far, and i think everyone has grown. As a person, I have definitely changed. For the longterm better or worse, it's extremely subjective, but I know that as i let God guide me thru this messed up world, somehow, there have been pinches of goodness added in. and in the long run, maybe, those positive traits will amplify themselves into bigger doings that will impact.

bcme. am i still back to this? literature. why am i thinking of you suddenly. thought i denounced you into outer space ready. sigh. why is math back in my life. i just passed for vectors and matrices. and this is like one of the two topics i actually got down to 'practice' for! annoyance! my chemical experiement with lunch worked out fabulous today. chem was fun. i'm really glad how all my options turned out by the way.

re: 407. seriously. i don't want to analyse/say anything at this moment. i was just extremely quiet during netball carn, aside frm the cheering and occasional encouragement to individuals, cos half the time, i felt like just hugging the whole world and crying. but must play matches mah, how to hug them. because it was such a dream come true, i just retreated and basked in the whole atmosphere. you know, so many times, as a vchair, i have to be constantly putting on a performance, showing enthusiasm to get things going, showin firmness in decisionmaking...[not that i disliked that, i enjoyed workin for such a potential-ful class]! On the 21st, 407 took over the stage. they handled the stage operations, they took over the communication systems. the temptation for me to just adjourn to the circle seats, to just watch and smile was ohso-there. such joy and love is ohso-fragile. and i want to just let-it-be, a lil longer, a lil longer still, before we have to part. so, for a few more days, i'll be majorly ineloquent, minorly mute. im satisfied just seeing so much. it's a visual feast. since i've talked so much, i shall hold back a lil, lest you guys get sick of my voice =) but tell me, dont you feel empowered? yea! the lines belonged to you. take the script, go on with the action. i can be...a virtual director. [ like sandra's virtual mobile boyfriend- no la.excuse the analogy] im the most blessed vchair. thx guys.

kmli blogged at 10/25/2005 08:44:00 AM

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