mossadance

i feel very happy today. hm. happy sounds so...happy only. ok. try again. i feel very..jubilant, exultant, thrilled, cheerful. why? because im currently experiencing muscle aches. why again? because i have been marching up and down town, grabbing last minute stuffs for f.a.m. [last minute again] i really don't know why there are so many last minute things to keep me occupied. but, such things...can afford to be last-minute la.

and feeling that 'stretch', im compelled to share with you about the books i've pulled off my shelf just..a few days ago. i didn't have time to read them previously because i was 'too busy'. - yes, again. it's quite tragic.

that scott anderson book 'triage' is just some war journalism story. there's this part this guy, a war reporter/ journalist, got injured rather badly and while he was recovering, the doc dude, who was probably very..numbed by the bloody effects of war that he was saying "feel pain today? excellent. pain is always better than numbness."

though it sounds a tad bit sadistic, i think it's true to a certain extent. literally or figuratively.

second book is margaret atwood's blind asassin. i'm...just bouncing here and there, reading off a few chapts from here, and a few from there, so i'm not exactly getting the story. but there are some parts that are quite gross also. like this:

[er, i can't find it.] it's basically abt child labour. the children were made to weave cloth, and they had to work long hrs, under bad conditions, lighting or food - don't even think abt wages. the delicate patterns on the cloth blinded children. and why children? because their fingers are small and nimble. so, to stretch this bad reality sore, so many children would become blind that when the merchants put out the textiles, their worth would be labelled " X children died in the process". The closer the value of X is to infinity, the higher the bidding price. and so what happens to the blind children? they get sold to brothels as sex slaves. why this industry? cos basically u dont need education and cos customers wanted those blind children for their supposedly exotic touch. [bewildered stare]

then there's another part they cut of young girls' tongue also. And it's horrible because i just flip from a normal state of mind/ working state of mind to that of a traumatised state. a war novel and another that has snippets of extremely pessimistic and...dystopic storytelling. it's obviously worse when they tell the story under perfectly serene conditions, like, under the starry sky in the park. the tonal normality boosts it's psychological unstability and insanity.

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i had a lecture about the end days during tz in church. thank goodness the speaker spoke fast. any slower i'll fall asleep. but no la, it's really interesting leh. if only i can do this in place of math or something. i'll attend every lecture, tutorial, enrichment/supplementry class and do my own readup in the library! i can't wait for next week. it's challenging and that's good. ok. i have lots of work to do! [my heart longs for math] - that's bad because most of the time when u hope for something, you don't get it. so the more i hope - the worse it shld get. so i shld deny my longing for math. so, somehow, it might come. warped logic, but there's sense eh? yes.

kmli blogged at 11/14/2005 12:07:00 PM

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