mossadance

[1] i did not fall for kelvin's april fool's trick =] im so proud of myself. he was trying to con me that thomas smsed him that there's chem bonding I test on wed. heehee. Lousy. get well soon by the way.

[2] gavel clubs summit today!

+ i enjoyed myself cos i love emceeing, though i didn't talk much today. it just reminds me of the NE forums all over again. melissa kwee, ron dudley, cherian george, youth activism, citizenship, casino issue...the last forum was the best forum i had ever attended/chaired in rgs. as i was facilitating, i just can't help but miss the chemistry me and emily had. like, i can scribble her a sentence in awful, desperate handwriting e.g. 'end discussion', '2 more comments, 5 mins more' sort of thing and, she'll get it, and i know she gets it, you know? and and, when speakers drone and when participants go out of point and overboard, i can give her the sideway glance and tadum! she gets it. this time, emceeing was with zhiqi. he's a veryvery nice person to work with, i must say. but, (i know i can't blame him, and i dont expect him to change) he's still a guy and...that's very far from being an 'emily'. i know i told you, but, great job, dude. really.

+ i'm really impressed by the gavel club seniors. im really seeing a lot of effort, and..perseverance and pride in what they do and i must say that it is tremendously impressive and inspiring. it's a little unbelievable, and seeing it with my own eyes makes it seem even more unbelievable. u guys are....really capable.

[3] class dinner, then bdae party for rng and debch.
had a very nice singing session with julia. very nice harmonising. =] zhangrui can sing la. must sing more ah. then...me and mandre went to the party. it was a small group of osl04 folks. very cosy. very gd SATAY...! and so nice to meet ms tay again.

+/-? i am going to sound very critical here, but that doesnt mean im unfeeling and judgemental, ok? a lot of people are going on overseas service learning trips. i believe in miracles. i believe that not everything can be explained. perhaps, there's this sudden surge of generousity and compasasion that compels people to sign up for projects like queuing up for their next meal. but, should it ever cross your mind that you're going to do a service learning trip Overseas, because the cost of 'buying' that credit is so cheap to you, you are fooling the starving kids. you are cheating them and buying yourself a ticket to rob them of their innocence. there are somethings you cannot hide, and some mistakes you do not want to make. it is always the right time to do the right thing. i mean, no one's perfect, no human intention is ever purely pure...but...think about it, what does a service learning project mean to you...i just think there must be a lot more of reflection and thinking and involvement, right? im not an expert on this or anything like that but, think...think with your 'integrated' brain, this cannot be all.

back to nothing comes from nothing. nothing ever could. why do we pretend nothing's something and fool ourselves we've got that big bit to reach for, when you know inside you that nothing was there frm the start? and sometimes, shouldnt we challenge even established organisations? shouldn't we be more discerning/become more discerning when it comes to charity and socialwork organisations, no matter what 'umbrella' it's under?

im sure you'll be in for a very amazing experience, gracing the villages of the less-priviledge with your presence. you'll feel needed. you'll feel loved, you'll feel respected and important. but can that amount of money be used so that those guys on the other side of the globe can truly look at themselves and feel needed, lovable, respectable and important? how's the sustainability of your project? it's no good cos under such low standards on their part and on our (moral conscience) part, we're using that amt of money to tap goodness out of one another. real aid does not have to be 'seen', but your mainstream charity is. at the end of the day, where does the money go to? it's not even welfare loss (like in econs).

it's not like i've got a very good solution myself. it's not like i've always been perfect and all-knowing, but some things i know you know too. should you do thingA? one way perhaps is to think whether you want to be identified as having done A/you will dare to stand up and say you did thingA 10 years down the road. if you're not even sure of that, there is but, nothing. to talk about. nothing gives me the right to critic and judge, but i know that 10 years down the road, what i've said above is still going to be what i will stand up for. that perhaps, gives me, but a reason to be so daring and potentially-offensive. but i mean well, in much love.

kmli blogged at 4/01/2006 08:09:00 PM

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