mossadance

i remember the relief i felt yesterday, after school and h3chem ended. so relieved though i know it's temporal. happily changed into my blazer for interact ushering. can't remember when, but at some point of time, i thought i was just going to tip over. and as i was standing there with matthew and heqi, i remember telling myself/whispering to God for that matter, that thankgoodness i wasnt standing there alone because i was beginning to feel nauseous and giddy.

i really wanted to float home right away but i was scared to leave alone cos i was scaring myself by feeling sovery terrible and sick. so i went to the lt and tried to 'feel better' and rest. finally, i couldnt take it and i just charged home. i really felt so terrible i was going to cry. everything just felt wrong but i couldn't explain which part of me wasnt feeling well. collapsed in bed ~i still persevered and showered before sleeping~ at 8 and the fever started.

I love my mummy cos she woke up every hour to check on me to take my temperature and get me water. it was a horror to see so many smses at around 1am. i had zero energy to reply. at the 3am wakeupslot, i managed to reply some of the smses before collapsing again.zzz. the fever just didnt go down and i felt sick and pissed cos there was no way i could carry thru with today's events. i was suppose to have college day dance perf, church movie marathon and ASEAN dance night! to think i was fretting over managing my time for saturday just a few days ago but now, i'm reduced to being bedridden!

stayed in the whole of today and the fever peaked in the morning. i could barely manage >20 mins of sleep each time because i)i was aching all over ii)my brain was so fried i couldnt control my thoughts iii)i couldnt concentrate on sleeping cos everything and nothing was competing for my attention. seriously, i was dreaming about 'systems' the whole night. i can't remember what it was about, but it was something VERY procedural, running on a very tight schedule and i really hated the whole procedure and feeling and i remember working at a very fast pace to finish the machine-like-task but more and more came and with each step of the mechanism, i was working my gutjuices out. very mentally emotionally physically draining.

used to have a feverdream that is suppose to be a 3D railway track building thing taking place below a dollhousecafe. at the end of the dream, a train would be charging down the half completed railway and the noise would crescendo and i'll wake up with a shock. this new feverdream is much more dreary cos you can't pull yourself out of it. i managed to escape only when my mum woke me up and i felt so horriblyterrible i ended up sobbing. [Loser]

ok. back to council proposal for monday. im glad im feeling better. i can't remember having a 24hr fever for as long as i can remember. stupid way to end off, but in premature-celebration ~

"Fever" - michael buble

Never know how much I love you, never know how much I care
When you put your arms around me, I get a fever that's so hard to bear
You give me fever - when you kiss me, fever when you hold me tight
Fever - in the the morning, fever all through the night.
Sun lights up the daytime, moon lights up the night
I light up when you call my name, and you know I'm gonna treat you right
You give me fever - when you kiss me, fever when you hold me tight
Fever - in the the morning, fever all through the night.

Everybody's got the fever, that is something you all know
Fever isn't such a new thing, fever started long ago.
Romeo loved Juliet, Juliet she felt the same
When he put his arms around her, he said "Julie baby you're my flame"
Thou givest fever, when we kisseth, fever with thy flaming youth
Fever - I'm afire, fever yea I burn forsooth.
Captain Smith and Pocahontas had a very mad affair
When her Daddy tried to kill him, she said "Daddy-O don't you dare"
Give me fever - with his kisses, fever when he holds me tight
Fever - I'm his Missus, Oh daddy won't you treat him right.

Now you've listened to my story, here's the point I have made:
Chicks were born to give you fever, be it Fahrenheit or Centigrade
They give you fever - when you kiss them, fever if you live and learn
Fever - till you sizzle, what a lovely way to burn.
What a lovely way to burn.
What a lovely way to burn.

kmli blogged at 7/29/2006 08:54:00 PM

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