mossadance

"Failures are more finely etched in our minds than triumphs, and success is an elusive, if not mythic, goal in our demanding society" (Hugh Drummond).

okay. i didn't mean to start off with a pessimistic quote, but, after i read it, i thought 'fair enough', so no harm.

grozengrape.][cold showers.] says:
frenchbraid. if u know what that is
Where is the moment we needed the most...You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost.........[daniel powter] says:
technically no
Where is the moment we needed the most...You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost.........[daniel powter] says:
i can wikipedia it dont worry
[grozengrape.][cold showers.] says:
haha!
=after a while=
Where is the moment we needed the most...You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost.........[daniel powter] says:
A French braid, unlike a regular, three strand braid, starts with small sections of hair at the crown of a person's head, and intermittently, more hair is added to each section as the braid progresses down the head. The classic French braid is a single braid at the back of one's head, though variations on this hairstyle include side braids and twists.
[grozengrape.][cold showers.] says:
does it help?
Where is the moment we needed the most...You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost.........[daniel powter] says:
cant really imagine tt but i guess tts what i meant by a "ponytail"
Where is the moment we needed the most...You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost.........[daniel powter] says:
shld be u la i've seen ur posters

HM. r.i. boys...tsk. wikipedia leh! sho shmart so dont playplay.

okay. today has been quite. i dunno what. so i shall blog abt random things that carry hints of 'today'.

Ms Naidu: " Hm...you look very sad, and tired"
Me: Looks up, smilesmile. (what's there to say if it's true)
Ms Naidu: "[pause]"
Me: [thinks: uh, yea, anything else? can i rest my head on the table again?]
Ms Naidu: "...actually, ever since you became a counsellor..."

Me: ?!? sits up, ALARMED. "huh, really."
Ms Naidu: smilesmile, "yea" walks away to another group.
Me: wide awake. not tired anymore. somersaulting my brains, very puzzled.

i was very bothered by what she said, cause if it's true, i'm not realising it, and i mean, for her to say something like that, i hope it means something and i hope i figure out what that means. so i thought very hard and yea, did a 'reflection' (on the train doors, no la. kidding.)

[1] hypothesis one: i've been feeeling happy, quite happy thus far, but i've also been kept busy. so perhaps, i havnt had the energy to reflect my 'happiness'? no spare battery to bother showing you im happy. if im happy, im happy already what. what's there to be (proven).

[2] i've been telling myself that i have to look happy and cheerful to brighten other people's day. it just does not do justice to them if i choose to be sad and difficult. but somehow, i realise im finding it more and more difficult. i mean, compared to how i was always full of nonsense in rg~sec three? it's been getting harder by and by.

[3] yea. i think it's the no-energy-to-show-happiness thing. but usually, around some people, i'm always happy. but it's not fair to say i wont smile if you dont make me laugh...so...i'll figure that out some day.

[4] there are sad things happening in my life, but as of this moment, i'm still happy. this one i'm sure. i just hope i wont be feeling too happy, thereby leading to contentment and then slipping down to complacency.

[5] i'm sorry if im a pain in the ass, if i dont smile enough. cos sometimes i'm darn selfish, i bet you know. i get a kick out of ignoring people on purpose if i dont feel like responding. dont think i have an attitude problem la. im just trying to cut myself some slack and take some risks, and do a teeny weeny bit of 'i can't be bothered behavior' that i really really have no chance for. be a joyful victim. oh. but please dont ignore me. keep trying and drill to up your charisma quotient. there are some people i just can't ignore any way :). finally.

kmli blogged at 7/12/2006 07:26:00 PM

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