mossadance

so it's next year.

my bone growth scan using that radioactive isotope from the dept of nuclear medicine has prophesized that im still going to grow, and bone growth activity is intense. so there is still Hope and i'm going to grow taller still! (note to self: be very careful what you chat to God about)

i think growing even taller would be pretty cool. as of today, i'm 1.66 cm and...55.5..fine! 56 kg. can la. no where near obesity yet.

But. now that the op is pushed back till after a's...

suddenly, i feel tired and disappointed that my plans are foiled, and my plans to foil plans are foiled. and i knew it was coming.if i not be 'me' for a while and watch kmli, i wouldn't recommend her for the operation either, somehow.

perhaps, till next year, when i look back at this exciting episode, i will smile, shrug or laughingly roll my eyes at myself, for being so sillyly amazing - convincing surgeons and doctors from the combined clinics, conversing and negotiating with them till they commented and conceded...Long Story. no matter what, i'll never regret for the adultfriends made, the thoughts that stirred up in me on my visits.

of course, i was a little impatient, trying to think my way through things, to have surgeons and op theatres fall into MY schedule, and i hate to say i was quite impressive at that.

if mine's a good plan, God has an even better plan i have to say. and though i absolutely do not see how the-next-year-plan is going to be any better than mine, i'll have to give Him every benefit-of-the-doubt. if im asked to defend my plan, i think i will still be a pain and rattle off my case. but i trust God has looked through my general-project-proposal and he has made certain ammendments.

And as bits and pieces of his plan comes to light, I'll be eagerly waiting His nudge, saying 'See, I told you so.'

it's like being pulled back while you are about to jaywalk. you are darn sure there are NO cars in sight. you stubbornly try to fling off that hand that grabs you, before some mega-vehicle whizzes past you- shutting you up.

Li Kun Man, you'll need to learn to submit, biting your lip. cheer up!

kmli blogged at 9/21/2006 10:19:00 AM

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